Two days ago, the whole 9/11 memorial thing started here in earnest with a telefilm called World Trade Center I had never heard of, and a documentary on that fateful day that I had already watched, but still stuck glued to with my wife. Somehow, the crazy unrealness of the pictures, reminding you of the feeling of crazy unrealness when all of this went down, catches us sort of unaware every time, despite now having seen the towers go down and that insane dust cloud - which looks like some kind of sci-fi monster, as it winds its way around the highrises of downtown Manhattan - a number of times. Even twnety-five years, it still seems not quite real.
The wife and I were both too close and too far away from events. we were both studying at the University of Kansas in lovely Lawrence, Kansas. I remember the beginning of the morning ell. I stumbled out of my bedroom because there was a lot of noise in the appartment. My flatmate had put his radio on high volume, and was on the way of leaving, just telling me that something had happened in New York, some sort of attack. And off he went. My flatmate was from Pakistan, and I believe going to join his friends and fellowcountrymen to lay low together somewhere. A thing to know about Lawrence, Kansas: It is easily the most cosmopolitan, international and idiosyncratic plce in all of the state of Kansas. Or as our buddy George - weed-smoking, tax-evading, barstool-philosophizing George - would say, "an island of sanity in an ocean of madness". his is probably the only place in Kansas were a 6"1 Asian drag ueen (probably 6"2 in hgh heels) could walk in full makeup, wig, dress and, yes, high heels through town without being bothered. I alwys thought. 'that lady/gentleman' goes ten miles out of city limits in any direction and we'll find him/her beaten to a bloody pulp in some street corner'. But not in Lawrence.
And yet, and yet, for two or three days in Spetember 2001, dozens if not more international students - especially those from middle-eastern countries - laid low and stayed out of sight, for fear of some entirely unwarrated redneck retribution. Anyway, so there I was, left n the appartment, with only my flatmate's crappy radio-alarm clock as a source of information (I had a Tv, but only with a DVD player attached to it). So I sat all morning on my flatmate's bed, in front of that horrible-sounding pievce of crap radio, trying to make sense of somehthing that didn't make sense. I'm probably not the only one who had that thought, but I was thinking of Orson Welles' famous/infamous The War Of The Worlds radio play that have people believe that a Mrtian invasion was imminent. Could this stuff be real? It didn't help, that the radio reporting was as chaotic as almost everything else that day. They didn't know how many planes had been kidnapped, and how many planes were still in the air. I don't remember hearing te news of the towers fall, but that's because the rest of the morning is kind of a blur. I remember how I felt, but not what I heard or how much of it computed.
It was probably around lunch time that I finally took my bike to drive on campus. They had put up televisions in the majority of university buildings, but by that time they had decided to stop sowing newscasts on them, as they felt it would only upset people and make a volatile situation even more volatile. That is also why neither me nor the wife had seen the towers go down, or any of the other events. I only for the first time saw the images a year later, when the first anniversary came up, and documentaries and memorial specials would fill up the screens the second week of September. I don't know why, maybe because it felt too ghoulish, but I had never looked up the moving pictures of the day's events. I read a ton of internet nd newspaper coverage on it, but other thn still pictures, I hadn't seen much of 9/11. So wwhen I saw the pictures for the first time a year later, I was floored. If things had seemed unreal in front of that crappy alarm-clock radio, they didn't look more real in moving pictures. Quite the opposite, the moving picturs somehow looked even less real than the confused radio reports I heard on the day itself. Even now, 25 years later, these pictures look like they got beamed in from an alternative dimension, if not for the recognizable early-2000s clothing and what not.
I didn't think I'd write something about 9/11, but this stuff wants out, onto a page, so there it is. And so it makes sense to propose to you today the re-issue of my reworked version of Springsteen's The Rising. Until earier this year I had never really listened to the lyrics of that title song in detail, but then I heard a bootlegged version of a concert evrsion with a gospel choir, which was quite impressive, and for the first time in twenty years or so I took the booklet to The Rising and really looked at the lyrics. Somehow, I had fallen in the same Bruce trap that all those people misunderstanding "Born In The U.S.A." had fallen into. I had never really put the dots on the i's on that one, so when I reread it and realized that the titular rising is the dying protagonist's soul rising to heaven, I was like, 'dammit Bruce, you and your catchy choruses, you got me on that one'.
I also realized that at least to my mind, a trilogy of The Rising's songs talk about the same unknown firefighter. "Into The Fire", "You're Missing" and "The Rising" seem to me about the same man, perishing in the fire. His wido comforts herself with his courage and cnviction in "Into The Fire", then lists all the things hat have changed or stay the same in his absence in his absence, then we go back to the oment he perishes in "The Rising". Whether you share or agree with that interpretation is bside the point, I think, the songwriting and observations on the best parts of The Rising - which are all left on my edited version of the album - are impressive, and anyone who still poo-poos Springsteen as a songwriter or storyteller, I really don' know what to tell you. 'Fuck off', probably.
So, have a drink for the ones we lost, 25 years ago, in the time beteween, just now. And come on up for the Rising, come on up for the Rising tonight...





















